Yesterday was tough. I was in quite a dark place. I was frightened, depressed, bitter, discouraged, worried, stressed, hopeless, and grumpy!

But as my mother always says: "this too shall pass!"

And much of that black and stormy cloud has, indeed, passed- and I can see the sun again.

I drove by the house today and tried to say a final goodbye. I sat there in the car waiting for an epiphany or some sort of solid moment of closure. It never came. I was just a woman, sitting in her car, looking at a house and waiting. Life just isn't always like the theatre- or maybe it is, but it's alot more like a beckett play sometimes!

Finally I had to get up to the hospital to visit Mum so I drove away. Sans closure, sans epiphany, sans any sense of accomplishment. But I won't drive by again. Not for a long, long time.

I think the house will stay in my heart and my mind, but it will have to serve as less of a direct goal but more of a symbolic goal: when we get our act together and our life in order we can finally reach for our dream home, which may or may not look alot like this one!!

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On the Mum front: She's OK. Not great, but (knock on wood) not awful. They can't get the blood pressure under control and they need to test her for EVERYTHING! So she'll be there until at least Monday!

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In other, more productive news: I started the official paper work for my teaching license!!

Yay! On the road to over-qualified unemployment :)