We Really Fucked It Up This Time

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Ever hear a song over an over, and even though you listen to it and you enjoy it, you don't really HEAR it until you're really ready to hear it?  I mean, sure you liked it and all, but suddenly oneday, you're driving along and suddenly WHAM!  The lyrics make SO MUCH SENSE to you.  Like an epiphany.  And suddenly you ascribe meaning to certain lines, and color it with your own understanding and your personal perspective, and now the imagery is so much the clearer because you've cast the characters with people in your life, rather than attractive cypers in a music video or whatever?

Now when you listen to the song it resonates in a completely new and more meaningful way.  It has a weight and an impact, maybe a sentimentality or deeper wisdom than it ever had before.  Now you hear the song when you listen to it.  And you hear echoes of your own folly.  Hear the voices of your friends or lovers or coworkers.  You see imagery that anchors this song in the soundtrack of your life experience from here on out.

As an educator I have learned that people cannot learn until they're ready to learn.  Until they are open and receptive and until they can scaffold the information onto things they have already learned.  So while I may like a song and appreciate the lyrics as poetry, they will remain isolated, floating in no-man's-land, until I am ready to make connections to prior knowledge and build it a place in my understanding.

A tragically beautiful thought, isn't it?  That we can't learn until we're ready to learn?  It makes the heart ache, doesn't it?  Makes you want so badly to reach out and shake people, force them to get ready, get prepared, and save them from the travesties and poor decisions and blind, ignorant stumbling that we all do in our lives.  Life seems to be one constant and ever-arching learning curve, doesn't it?

There's a song that's sort of been existing on the fringes of my life ever since it came out, I hear it alot, I have liked it since first hearing it, but today... today the song took on a life of its own in my imagination, because the lyrics reminded me so powerfully of what I'm struggling with, what I'm working through, how I'm feeling, what I wish I could say or what I wish people could say to me.

And I know, as a director, exactly where I would work this song into the movie of my life.

I wonder what the next track will be?

Hmmm.  I like Adele's Rolling in the Deep.  Maybe I'll give it another listen and see if I can't assign some of my own meaning to it.

Also, did you know Florence of Florence in the Machine is a pretty smokin redhead?  yup.  I think I should like some more of her in my life, thank you!

You'll never be what is in your heart
You're not as brave as you were at the start
Rate yourself and rake yourself,
Take all the courage you have left
Wasted on fixing all the problems
That you made in your own head...