Write a Novel?

I should have done this, probably.

Which led me to wonder: will i ever have another idea?  I'm so steeped in cedar falls right now, so wrapped up in this sprawling multi-generational story and this perfect sandbox for soap opera style free-play, that it feels like i don't have anything else in me.  Novel month would have been an interesting challenge for me.  Think I can do it?  Should do it?  have the time\energy to do it?

I dunno.  it made me feel all panicky and tense when I thought too seriously about it, so I guess I'm not there yet.

I tried it out in my head today:  "I wanna be a writer."

It was scary.

I don't know if I'll ever get around to saying it out loud.

So i'll continue to play.  

And i have faith that yes, I will have other ideas.  I get this way, all in-the-trenches with an idea while I'm on a roll.  I believe I will have other stories inside me once i've told this one to my satisfaction.

And If i'm really super concerned I'll just do some more non-sequitor style writing prompts to keep me from falling into a rut.

in the past two days I've written some scenes that I just don't know if they can stay.  as soon as something springs to life i feel like it is cannon, like it is part of the story, but i really don't think every single scene should be or even can be part of the story i am trying to tell.

We'll see.

I hate to think that they're a waste of time, so let's say they are starting points, or jumping off points for better stuff.