BROKE

So I'm pretty broke. It really is quite serious. From here on out I absoulutely cannot spend money on anything other than essentials- and essentials do not include office supplies, exotic fruit, a night at the lux level, or more effing clothes.

Aaron and I will have to learn to content ourselves with dinner in every night and a lot less of it for that matter!

He says I am allowed to continue playing the lottery, but only one, count it, ONE ticket. not lucky number 7. not one every time I swing by the convenience store. no one a day. one. only one. Now my big dilemma is whether or not it should be a quick pick or if I should choose the numbers. UGH! being a libra makes this conundrum impossible. If I do quick pick and my numbers come up I will probably hurl myself off a bridge- but every time I choose numbers and they fail to appear I feel like a silly failure. yikes- right?

I put away the kitchen remodeling magazines and all that junk. Probably should have thrown them out, but I filed them away for later use. And I am officially reporting here and now that I no longer feel a stirring of any sort in my bosom or anywhere else when I look at photos of the house on Arlington street.

I do, however, feel a distinctly grim melancholy about the state of our finances and the persistent belief that we will NEVER be able to afford a house. at all.

Probably we will- but the feeling is there none the less. And no house means no kids- so yes, that hurts too.

And as happy as I've been with student teaching so far, I admit freely that I wish I didn't have to go back tomorrow. Thank god for the long weekend! I spent almost all of saturday sleeping!!! And yesterday was spent in the company of Aaron's mother and elderly but very kind boyfriend. While the day was nice, cordial and agreeable- spent on the side of a little lake in braintree- it was one giant waste of time. LOL.

And today we've been cleaning. You'd think keeping a studio clean and tidy would be easy but you'd be wrong and you'd be underestimating our ability to make royal messes in no time flat.