Nobody had any suggestions for which day of the week might be a good photoblog day, and that was cruel, folks, because I'm a libra and have a great deal of difficulty with such decisions. So I asked the Hubs, who is a Leo and has little to no issues with decision making.
He decided Wednesday, right smack in the middle.
I was going to start yesterday, but was busy having a very fun and then very busy wednesday. Yesterday was our 14th anniversary. 14 years together. Awwww. Of course we couldn't, um, celebrate the usual way because it is that time of the month, but we had some chill fun. We got some delish veggie sandwiches, we watched nostalgic sitcoms, played videogames, and then I had to work on work stuff, then we cuddled up in bed and reminisced until we drifted off to sleep.
I am very grateful to be living out our simple dreams together. No matter what else, we always said to eachother, we always promised, that as long as we could be together, we'd be happy. As long as we could fall asleep in eachother's arms and wake up beside eachother, we could live anywhere, do anything, endure everything, so long as we had eachother. Sometimes we get caught up in the silly stuff. Sometimes we get stressed about money and babies and jobs and passions that pull us away from reality. But our base, here, together, is solid and loving and understanding and strong, and I should be on my knees everyday in thanks for that. (incidentally, I am on my knees almost daily, for which he is very thankful:)
So what if I never become a writer? Or a mother? So what if I never have a big house or a big bank account? So what if my dress size always stays in double digits? I told him I'd be happy in a shack, so long as it was OUR shack and we could be there together. And that remains true. I love him more each day, I love living with him more every day, and look forward to years and years and years with my best friend, my soulmate, my lover, and my husband.
And if, for some reason, we ever have to live apart, the way we did for TEN YEARS of our lives, then so be it. We lived and loved and learned whilst living apart, and we were closer apart than most couples who live together. There is an intimacy borne from hours upon hours in quiet conversation on the phone, stretching across distance, reaching across miles. We were one, despite inhabiting separate spaces. And we longed for the completion, longed to merge and exist together in one space, but we endured, we even thrived. The friendship was solid, the love was passionate, and when we did get together, the physical? Whoosh. Mind blowing.
I'd rather not go back to living apart, ever, but I know we have the stuff to make it thorugh, should that need arise. And while we have this precious time together, I vow to stop each day or each night, to stop, and close my eyes, and say a 'thank you', then open my eyes and look at the life we have made, and smile. No matter the mess, no matter the stress, no matter the uncertain future, no matter any of that.
I am a lucky, lucky individual. And I am grateful.
And I will probably do photo post on FRIDAYS instead of wednesdays! lol. So look forward to that!
He decided Wednesday, right smack in the middle.
I was going to start yesterday, but was busy having a very fun and then very busy wednesday. Yesterday was our 14th anniversary. 14 years together. Awwww. Of course we couldn't, um, celebrate the usual way because it is that time of the month, but we had some chill fun. We got some delish veggie sandwiches, we watched nostalgic sitcoms, played videogames, and then I had to work on work stuff, then we cuddled up in bed and reminisced until we drifted off to sleep.
I am very grateful to be living out our simple dreams together. No matter what else, we always said to eachother, we always promised, that as long as we could be together, we'd be happy. As long as we could fall asleep in eachother's arms and wake up beside eachother, we could live anywhere, do anything, endure everything, so long as we had eachother. Sometimes we get caught up in the silly stuff. Sometimes we get stressed about money and babies and jobs and passions that pull us away from reality. But our base, here, together, is solid and loving and understanding and strong, and I should be on my knees everyday in thanks for that. (incidentally, I am on my knees almost daily, for which he is very thankful:)
So what if I never become a writer? Or a mother? So what if I never have a big house or a big bank account? So what if my dress size always stays in double digits? I told him I'd be happy in a shack, so long as it was OUR shack and we could be there together. And that remains true. I love him more each day, I love living with him more every day, and look forward to years and years and years with my best friend, my soulmate, my lover, and my husband.
And if, for some reason, we ever have to live apart, the way we did for TEN YEARS of our lives, then so be it. We lived and loved and learned whilst living apart, and we were closer apart than most couples who live together. There is an intimacy borne from hours upon hours in quiet conversation on the phone, stretching across distance, reaching across miles. We were one, despite inhabiting separate spaces. And we longed for the completion, longed to merge and exist together in one space, but we endured, we even thrived. The friendship was solid, the love was passionate, and when we did get together, the physical? Whoosh. Mind blowing.
I'd rather not go back to living apart, ever, but I know we have the stuff to make it thorugh, should that need arise. And while we have this precious time together, I vow to stop each day or each night, to stop, and close my eyes, and say a 'thank you', then open my eyes and look at the life we have made, and smile. No matter the mess, no matter the stress, no matter the uncertain future, no matter any of that.
I am a lucky, lucky individual. And I am grateful.
And I will probably do photo post on FRIDAYS instead of wednesdays! lol. So look forward to that!
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