Tuesday, April 03, 2012

Tomorrow is another day

More than a week since my last post!  Scandal.

It is just so time consuming, being a grown up.

We're in april now.  We're in spring now.  We're in the home fucking stretch now. 

But also not so much.  I am looking down the barrell of, what, ten more years of teaching--at the least?

And I remembered something I vowed to myself in high school:  As god as my witness, I will never, ever, cross my heart and hope to die, ever become an English teacher.

Hah.  Life's fucking adorable, isn't it?  I also swore that by this age I'd have at least two and a half children.

I'm an English teacher with a fish that won't die and a couple of cat's we've potty trained.

And I'm most definitely in therapy.

On mood stabilizers and antidepressants.

Not because of the cats...I don't think...

Anyway.  On the path to something I never wanted.

But maybe I do want it now?  I can't tell.

But if I have to lie, cheat, beg, borrow or steal, as god is my witness, I'll never stop trying to figure it the fuck out.

1 comment:

Yelp! said...

Two things.

One. I've missed your blogging lately.

Two. I started watching SMASH.