More than a week since my last post! Scandal.
It is just so time consuming, being a grown up.
We're in april now. We're in spring now. We're in the home fucking stretch now.
But also not so much. I am looking down the barrell of, what, ten more years of teaching--at the least?
And I remembered something I vowed to myself in high school: As god as my witness, I will never, ever, cross my heart and hope to die, ever become an English teacher.
Hah. Life's fucking adorable, isn't it? I also swore that by this age I'd have at least two and a half children.
I'm an English teacher with a fish that won't die and a couple of cat's we've potty trained.
And I'm most definitely in therapy.
On mood stabilizers and antidepressants.
Not because of the cats...I don't think...
Anyway. On the path to something I never wanted.
But maybe I do want it now? I can't tell.
But if I have to lie, cheat, beg, borrow or steal, as god is my witness, I'll never stop trying to figure it the fuck out.
It is just so time consuming, being a grown up.
We're in april now. We're in spring now. We're in the home fucking stretch now.
But also not so much. I am looking down the barrell of, what, ten more years of teaching--at the least?
And I remembered something I vowed to myself in high school: As god as my witness, I will never, ever, cross my heart and hope to die, ever become an English teacher.
Hah. Life's fucking adorable, isn't it? I also swore that by this age I'd have at least two and a half children.
I'm an English teacher with a fish that won't die and a couple of cat's we've potty trained.
And I'm most definitely in therapy.
On mood stabilizers and antidepressants.
Not because of the cats...I don't think...
Anyway. On the path to something I never wanted.
But maybe I do want it now? I can't tell.
But if I have to lie, cheat, beg, borrow or steal, as god is my witness, I'll never stop trying to figure it the fuck out.
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1 comment:
Two things.
One. I've missed your blogging lately.
Two. I started watching SMASH.
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