Grades are due today, so I took the fucking day off.
I am almost $500.00 overdrawn until my direct deposit goes through tonight at midnight.
My health insurance is still in limbo or non-existant.
Which means my medication is slim to none (leftovers and free samples)
And my stress level is through the roof because by june I may not have a job and simultaneously may not have a place to live, as my landlord wants to move back in here...
But the election went the way I'd hoped (with a few exceptions). I am not going to work today (double edged, but I'm choosing to enjoy the pleasant edge), we have monday off, Thanksgiving is within sight, and I live with and love my best friend.
So despite the instability of my mental/emotional state, and despite the overwhelming burdens of work, finances, and paperwork... despite all that I am feeling glad.
And not like killing myself. Today, anyway.
Though I'll confess the prospect of accidental death almost never feels like a bad prospect.
I suppose with continued therapy I'll get to work through that.
I am almost $500.00 overdrawn until my direct deposit goes through tonight at midnight.
My health insurance is still in limbo or non-existant.
Which means my medication is slim to none (leftovers and free samples)
And my stress level is through the roof because by june I may not have a job and simultaneously may not have a place to live, as my landlord wants to move back in here...
But the election went the way I'd hoped (with a few exceptions). I am not going to work today (double edged, but I'm choosing to enjoy the pleasant edge), we have monday off, Thanksgiving is within sight, and I live with and love my best friend.
So despite the instability of my mental/emotional state, and despite the overwhelming burdens of work, finances, and paperwork... despite all that I am feeling glad.
And not like killing myself. Today, anyway.
Though I'll confess the prospect of accidental death almost never feels like a bad prospect.
I suppose with continued therapy I'll get to work through that.
Posts
No comments:
Post a Comment